You Can't Tame Me.

Notes: This is a revised version of a story I wrote in december.
Characters © Me.
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I'm not sure on what I should do with myself anymore...I've lost my way, and my path. Where do I go now? ...there's snow. It's snowing here. It's so pure and white, and I know I don't deserve to see it. It's pure, unlike the wings on my back, the blood trailing behind me and my soul. My spirit is broken and I feel so empty...And who wouldn't after what I have done? With my weapon at my side, the people I've seen back away from me in fear. I drag my feet through the snow. My sapphire blue hair is a total state, faded to a dull colour, dirty and covered in blood. I wear clothes I haven't changed in weeks. My body feels heavy and I haven't slept. I dare not in fear. I...I can't see well at all. My sight is fading away...I stop walking and I look up to the dark sky. Blurred flakes and clouds meet my sight and, for a moment, I see the flakes turn red. I let out a sorrowful cry and collapses into the snow, vision fading to black.

"It sure is beautiful out tonight...I wonder what I can make for lunch later. Soup maybe? or a nice dinner to warm up my cold body." A man said to himself as he walked along the snowy path. "It'll be Christmas soon. Mother said she would be up to see me, I wonder when...huh?"

He blinked as he saw a mound of snow in his path, with blood-stained feathers sticking out at odd angles. His titled his head in confusion and rubber his feline ears. His tail swished back and forth as he crouched down. He pulled at a feather and blinked when it wouldn't move. He tugged again and it came up, attached to the wing. He gasped and began to dig though the snow, not caring that his hands were going numb because of it. He threw his hand of his mouth as he uncovered a body of a man with tattered wings and bloody. He shook his hand and carefully picked the person up, being careful not to move him too much, in case of fractures.

"I can't just leave him out her to freeze to death, it wouldn't be right...damn he's heavy. I'll take him home and see what's happened to him." She said quietly, picking up the bag he dropped carefully, he began to take him home, the injured man's head cradled against the man's chest.

I thought I was dead...I'm in heaven? No...they've never let me into heaven after my crime...I'm in hell then, but why isn't it hot, the flames? I thought there would be fire here...and I can feel my body, which aches at the thought of moving...ant that faint pulse I hear in my ears...My heart? It's beating? I'm alive? but how can I be? I collapsed into the snow and I froze, numb. I had given up on life..so someone saved me? But why save a killer like me? I didn't ask to be saved at all, I wanted to die. A cold, alone grave...Maybe I should try and wake up, so I can face my saviour....

"Ugh..." He opened his eyes slowly and sat up with a groan, pain wracking his body. He blinked and shielded his eyes at the sun streaming through the window. "It's early morning?"
"Yes."
The man almost jumped out of the bed at the voice and he turned is head around as best in could. "Are...are you the one who saved me...?"
"Yes." The man nodded. "I found you frozen in a pile of snow, I couldn't just leave you there."
"but why...? I didn't ask to be saved...I wanted to die." She man began shaking in the bed he was in.
The other man came over, lifted his head up and looked into his eyes. "Why would you...?"
The man shook his head, unable to meet the other's gaze. "I have...nothing to live for anymore...The blood that stains me...isn't my own." He clothed the quilt in his hands, shaking harder.
"Whoa, easy there, you don't want to pass out again." The other man looked concerned.
"I'll be fine... by the way, what is your name?" He asked him.
"Mine? It's Lano Valentine. And yourself, unless you want to be called Wing or something."
The man laughed slightly. "It's Azurite Oceai..."
Lano blinked and scratched his head "Oceai? That's a unusual name... tell me, are your parents Japanese then?"
Azurite looked up surprised. "My father is, my mother was English. My father moved to england and met my mother."
"Ahh, I see now." Lano nodded. "My father was American, while mother is Japanese. We moved to england when I was eight years old. Mother and I moved up here when my father died of lung cancer as a heavy smoker."
Azurite nodded. "I thought your accent was different..."
Lano nodded to him and let go of his face. "Why don't you take a shower or something, you look pretty messed up, there's the bathroom next door."
Azurite looked down at himself, then climbed out the bed, standing on his shaky legs "Yeah, i do need a shower..."
Lano smirked "Do you need a hand there?"
Azurite looked back at Lano as he reacher the bedroom door. "It's alright, I-I can manage myself."
Lano ran a hand through his red hair as Azurite entered the bathroom and the shower was heard.
"By the way" Azurite said through the running water after a while "How old are you exactly?"
Lano blinked then smiled "I'm 22, how about yourself? You don't look as old as I am."
"I'm 18." Azurite yelled back through the shower.
"Ah, cool, do you go to college or something then?" He asked.
The shower could be heard being turned down for a while and someone sliding down the wall. "I...used to. I can't go back... anymore."
Lano blinked "oh, why not...?"
The shower stopped completely and Lano was starting to get worried. Azurite's voice was barely above a whisper and Lano, even with his sensitive hearing had to strain to hear what Azurite was saying. "The blood...belonged to one of my tutors. I killed him...killed him in a blind rage... I didn't care what happened to me at the time, I just wanted him dead. I remembered hearing about illegal activities he had been involved in, and I fear some of his gang members saw what happened... I ran... ran as far away as I could...my
father would of heard about it...he's a caring man, but he'll be alone now...my mother was killed by...a rapist...I miss her so... she would of know what to do...anyway, I ran and ran, my wings were heavy and I couldn't see clearly, but I ran, and when I couldn't..."
Lano opened the door slightly to see Azurite huddled in the corner with his wings wrapped around him. He walked over and knelt in-front of him. Azurite looked up with tears in his eyes. "I just picked a direction and walked. I didn't care where I ended up. I just wanted as far as away as I could get...I lost track of time...weeks must of got by...All I remember what the sun rising and setting many, many times as I walked. I never slept, ate or drink...I must've collapsed just before you found me..."
Lano frowned and placed a hand on Azurite's shoulder. "Wow, it must of been tough..."
Azurite sighed and in a moment of wanting, he clinged to Lano. "You're not gonna throw me back into the streets are you?"
Lano blinked, surprised, then pulled Azurite into a loose hug. "No, I'm not, trust me, I would never to that..."
Azurite looked up at him. "Promise...?"
Lano smiled. "I promise."
Azurite smiled and placed his head on Lano's chest. He didn't know what it was, but he felt safe with Lano, he trusted him.
"Besides..." Lano said "You remind me of myself."
Azurite blinked "really...?"
"Yes, except for the way you look of course."
"have you ever...?" He stopped, unsure as to how to ask.
"Killed anyone? Yes, I was beaten to a bloody pulp and left for dead because of it. I survived though...where are you from Azurite?"
"I'm from a town half way down the country...where are we like?"
"A small house in a village in the north."
"Wow, I have walked far..."
"yes, I'm surprised to got this far, you must have a lot of stamina." Lano nodded.
"yeah..."
Lano let him go and stood up, he offered his hand to help Azurite off the floor. Azurite took his hand and was pulled up. Lano took this time to look him over. He was quite pale compared to himself who was quite tanned. He had striking deep-sea blue hair, which ran down to his shoulder blades, the wings attached to his back and were wrapped around him auto-defense were were deep-sea blue at the top and ran into indigo about two thirds of the way down, and they went from the tops being just above his head down to his knees. His body was rather well toned but the thing that stood out the most were his eyes. Sapphire blue eyes doted with indigo. So cold and uncaring, yet so afraid and lost at the same time. He realized he was staring and turned his head away, his tail swishing back and forth.
"you must be hungry..." He said.
Azurite nodded. "yeah, just a bit."
"Breakfast is almost ready, if you want some." He smiled and walked though the hall to the kitchen and over to a table.
"breakfast.. how long have I been out?" Azurite asked as he followed.
Lano set the plates, cups, knifes and forks. "Hm... about 4 days I think, I was wondering if you were ever going to wake up."
"4 days? wow they'll be looking for me by now." he sighed.
"Don't worry." Lano smiled. "I'm sure we'll be able to figure something out."
Azurite went to change into some clothes Lano had left on the bed with Lano himself set out the breakfast of scrambled eggs on toast.
Azurite came back through in a simple white shirt with slit in the back for his wings, and a pair of black jeans. Lano smiled and pulled a seat out for Azurite and he sat down. They sat in silence for a bit while eating.
"so, what was he?" Lano asked out of the blue.
"who?"
"The tutor. What was involved in, do you know?"
"I'm not sure....I think it was drugs or sex...All I know was he was right at the top, like the gang leader. And a big gang too."
Lano sighed "wow...they must be looking pretty hard."
"Indeed...what will I do?" Azurite said quietly.
"I don't know, but I'll help you in anyway I can."
"Thank you." Azurite replied and Lano smiled.
They finished breakfast and they both help with cleaning up. After-wards Lano walked towards the window.
"hey. Do you want to come with me to the store? I need to get some things."
Azurite pondered for a moment before agreeing. "yeah, i need some fresh air anyways."
Lano grabbed his coat, and handed Lano a scarf since he couldn't wear a coat without slits. Lano also grabbed his wallet and they headed out the door into the crisp December air. Azurite shut the door behind him and Lano locked it.